Things didnt work out...

Well for all of you fans who have been requesting that I still write, IM BACK IN TOWN! haha....alright...well for those of you who were filled in about that guy that I was interested in, just to let you know, it didnt work out...pretty much what happened is that he tried to take advantage of me...part way succeeded, I called it, and now he doesnt call anymore, because I told him not to. Anyways, on a lighter note- tonight I was taking a survey from this really really hot guy, and then all of a sudden we started making out! I guess he liked my answers....so then right after that, we started a singing musical, inspired by moulin rouge. Then after that, he proposed to me! His name is Jason by the way, and he may look like he is still in middle school but HE ISNT! He is a returned missionary, you can see it inscribed on his CTR ring! haha...there ya go Jason (sorry you guys...humor him) So anyways...I was just talking to Chris Vial on the phone...for those of you who know him anyway....and he is going on a mission to Salt Lake City! yaaaay for Christian! I love him to death. He was just making me feel soooo good about myself..seriously- he was like "melody sometimes I just wish that I had the characteristics that you do, because you are seriously my role model, and I know for sure that you are going to do great things in this world." Gosh I love him! Anyways, thats all for tonight, Im hecka tired (hecka-Im so mormon!) Goodnight all ya'll!

No mail for the fe-mail

Wow, do I feel special right now?! I go into the mail room thingy today, and there are like 15 packages, and then a million letters, and NOT ONE of them are for me..:-( I felt like throwing myself down a flight of stairs, but I held back. I decided no one was writing me because no one has my address....is that right? well if you want to write me, you better ask for my address so you can...that is, if you love me!


Alright guys, Im expecting some letters....or else I get thrown down a flight of stairs, and WHO wants that? Try not to be mean guys, I know you all want to comment telling me how much you wish I would throw myself down a flight of stairs, but please, spare me. have a good day, talk to you all lata!

Hello?

Woah you guys, SLOW DOWN on all the comments, you wouldnt want to make me feel special or anything now! Geez Leweez, does anyone even read this anymore?!

Yessssss!

Hey!!! I have some great news for anyone who cares! I got a job today, and Im so excited about it! I will be working at the Rexburg Opinion Center, where I call people and ask them to take a short survey about a random topic, and I get to make my own schedule, and I start at $6 an hour, so I can't wait! I can work as little as 12 hours/week or as much as 48 hours/week, so Im way stoked. Anyways, its really really late, so I need to get to bed so I can go to school in the morning! ttyl!

Yaaay For Friday!

Hey Ya'll!!!! Today was a pretty sweet day. We had a dance tonight, and that was a success, I gave my number out to a few pretty cute guys, so we'll see if any of them call, I'll keep you updated! Lets see---Happy Birthday to Malachi and Richard Ross *my adopted grandpa*!! Love you guys! I am just about to go have girls night watching 'one fine day' so I'll talk to you all later- Im going to my grandparents house tomorrow, so I wont be here over the weekend! Love you all!!

morning

Hey, I just got back from my classes, done for the day and here it is only 12:00. What do I do with myself? About last night's entry, I decided to just forget about all that stupid stuff and just focus on school work for now. I am trying really hard to increase my talents and learn knew ones, so I guess that will help. I was talking to my friend and he said that mostly what I need to do is just wait. Especially when you are trying so hard, I guess thats when it is hardest to find friends and whatnot, so I am just going to chill out and try not to try....I guess. Anyways, sorry for yesterday, I was at the end of my rope, but I climed just a little, so I can just hang out here!for a while. Talk to you all later, have a wonderful day!

Why do I feel this way?!??!

Hello readers. Today was an Ok day. but for some reason, I feel so incredibley down right now. There are a myriad of things running through my head, just making me want to throw myself down a flight of stairs more than anything. First of all, New term at college, Fall- the time when you meet more people than you have ever met...and here I am, having met no one at all. I have tried so hard too! I hate it. Next, I just feel like I am good at NOTHING. I have no motivation- theres nothing about me that people look at and say, "wow. That Melody is so good at ______!". I guess its just that Im not inspiring, and I want to be inspiring. I guess Im just realizing that I really dont like myself at all right now, becoming a person that I hate! I hate people who don't like themselves. Why is everything falling apart at this moment? I really wish there was someone I could talk to who is online right now, people who I would want to help me are either away or not online, and everyone knows that Melody hates to call people. Well now I am talking to someone, and maybe he can help- hes been known to do that before. So Im going to focus my attention to him. Thanks for reading. oh, and if this sounds like Im begging for compliments, Im not. so dont bother please.