Why do I feel this way?!??!

Hello readers. Today was an Ok day. but for some reason, I feel so incredibley down right now. There are a myriad of things running through my head, just making me want to throw myself down a flight of stairs more than anything. First of all, New term at college, Fall- the time when you meet more people than you have ever met...and here I am, having met no one at all. I have tried so hard too! I hate it. Next, I just feel like I am good at NOTHING. I have no motivation- theres nothing about me that people look at and say, "wow. That Melody is so good at ______!". I guess its just that Im not inspiring, and I want to be inspiring. I guess Im just realizing that I really dont like myself at all right now, becoming a person that I hate! I hate people who don't like themselves. Why is everything falling apart at this moment? I really wish there was someone I could talk to who is online right now, people who I would want to help me are either away or not online, and everyone knows that Melody hates to call people. Well now I am talking to someone, and maybe he can help- hes been known to do that before. So Im going to focus my attention to him. Thanks for reading. oh, and if this sounds like Im begging for compliments, Im not. so dont bother please.